"It’s I-can’t remember-what-month in 2015 and I’m on a plane 30,000 feet up in the earth’s atmosphere, heading to I-can’t-remember-where reflecting on some major life decisions I was facing at this critical point in time. I knew these decisions would affect my whole world and I felt paralyzed by them, not really knowing which way to go. I stared out the window of the plane (yeah, I’m a ‘window-seat’ guy) and the thought struck me that more often than not, I feel like I’m a spectator to the happenings of my own life and kinda saw myself in my mind’s eye, perched on the wing of the plane watching myself in the plane wrestling with these decisions. The phrase “Outside In” just sparked in my head, I quickly opened a note doc on my phone and started punching in exactly what I was feeling in that moment.
This song still hits home for me. There are some songs that capture a moment of your life and then it eventually becomes just a story you tell and then there are other songs that encapsulate a more consistent and perpetual state of being. "Outside In" definitely falls into the latter category for me. I often find myself reciting my own lyrics back to myself to this day, which helps me remember where I’ve come from and ultimately where I’m going.
“Sometimes I feel I'm on the outside looking in / It's like I'm watching someone else living in my skin
Hope has stained my heart in vain / I'm drowning in my sin / Sometimes I feel I'm on the outside looking in” — Klayton
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Lyrics:
It's hard for me to face that so much time has passed
And all the things that went away were those I thought would last
It’s hard to look into the mirror, dark within
And not embracing the reflection there may be my greatest sin
Sometimes I feel I'm on the outside looking in
It's like I'm watching someone else living in my skin
Hope has stained my heart in vain, I'm drowning in my sin
Sometimes I feel I'm on the outside looking in
Outside looking in
Standing here with empty hands to fill my heart
And thinking I am winning in a race I didn't start
Why is it that I always fail to hit the mark?
How can I be connecting while I'm unplugged in my heart?
Sometimes I feel I'm on the outside looking in
It's like I'm watching someone else living in my skin
Hope has stained my heart in vain, I'm drowning in my sin
Sometimes I feel I'm on the outside looking in
Outside looking in
